🔗 Share this article Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Fight Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome It was a overcast Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting. The headaches returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches. Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain around one eye that persists up to three hours. About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain around one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods. What unites patients is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. Another found 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain. Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like many causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home. Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital. Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet. Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads. Ancient healing texts suggest bizarre remedies for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk remedies. It was a European doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and disappearing daily at specific hours”. Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery that supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder note this. In 1998, researchers published the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered. Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his complaints. Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies. Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased. Official guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of some individuals. But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are handled with acute treatment only. Longer or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals. The official guidelines need revising to reflect a